Friday, June 25, 2010.
Assalamualaikum. Hello everyone. Hope you are all in the pink of health :)
I don't really know what to write about, today, but I just felt the 'itchiness' of wanting to write something. (Rasa gatal nak menulis sesuatu) (smiles)
I've been remembering Him a lot lately.
Him is not a person, ok. (wink2)
Him, is Him. Capital H.
Him is Allah as-Samad.
Like in Surah al-Ikhlas, verse 2, "Allahus Somad."
In Malay translation, it means,
"Allah yang hanya kepadaNya tempat bergantung semua makhluk"Literally translated in English, it means,
"To Allah alone does all (creations) place their hope on."(I do hope I'm translating it right, the best I can)
And He is.
He is always there for me.
He was and always has been with me. With us.
It is only us who doesn't realize He is there.
True, we can't see Him.
True, our eyes cannot find Him.
But is that reason, not to feel Him in our daily lives?
When there is a kitab (book) that tells of Him and His wonderful asma ul-husna (wonderful and beautiful names)?
True, it is just ONE kitab.
But it is a magical one.
Why do I say magical?
Because there is no other book on this earth, that I have read, that reaches far to the depths of my soul.
Because there is no other book that can make me feel myself. My inner self.
Because there is no other book that can melt my stubborn heart..and make me cry.
Have you ever heard of a book, making people cry?
Allright, novels are an exception. (smiles)
Sure, I cried when reading some of the best novels ever written, especially more so because I am a women, whose heart, yes everybody knows, is softer than that of men. (I'm not ashamed of it. I'm proud of it. Be proud women! :) )
But I'm telling you, no book, has ever made me cry..ALL MY LIFETIME. No other book my friends. (shaking head side to side)
If that is not magic, then what else do you call it?
If that is not a miracle in itself..then what else is?
I ask you, dear friends,
How can a book, make a human cry all his lifetime? Isn't it boring to read..and read the same book, over and over again? But, how is that I, never get bored, even though I've read it up till now, after 21 years, (well minus the baby years) that it is still able to touch my heart?
No. 2, how is it, that one book, did not just made me find myself, but it has helped GENERATIONS find the better side of themselves? This book is over 1400 years old. I don't even have an old great-great-great-great-great-great grandpa that is THAT old. Well, of course I don't, no human has ever lived that long. Generations have come, and gone, yet the book remains. How is it, that one book has such a great influence on the human mind?
No.3, how did a book, made me think of myself so much? So often I always felt out of my mind, yet what the book said was true. It was ALL, truth.
How?How did a NON-LIVING thing, managed to do all this?
Yes and no.
It is not magic. No.
But is it magical. It is a miracle.
Al-Quran..can only be the word of God.The word of Allah Taala.
Because no other man-written book, has ever had such a lasting effect on humans, for generations. Bring to me, if there ever is one, and let me read it. Then I shall know, for certain, whose words are the TRUTH, and nothing but the TRUTH.
Ya Allah, Allah as-Somad,
You have always, ALWAYS been there for me.
Even when I turned my back from You..I did not want to listen to You. I did not. This is true.
But then, You waited for me. You waited for me, to turn back. You gave me a chance, even when I felt I did not deserve that chance. Oh Allah, in fact, in fact, You gave me MANY CHANCES. Not one, not two..not even three. For there doesn't seem to be a limit when I'm with You. You were ALWAYS there for me. And I know..I believe, that You are always with the person reading my writings, right now.
Always. Always there. Never doubt that, my friend.
And so, on this beautiful Friday, I just want to dedicate this song, to You, oh Allah Taala. Just something small, and I know You don't have any need for this..but I need it. I need to do this, Allah. I know, I can't ever repay You for all Your blessings, those I can see, and those in disguises. I knew that..a long time ago. How can I? What I am..whatever possessions I have..they're all Yours. You gave them to me. So in fact, I own nothing. Nothing at all ya Allah.
But, I feel, I do have something. I can give something to You, however small and insignificant (tak penting) it may be. I don't care. I still want You to have it. You know I am stubborn, right? (smiles)
And that is, right here. (points to left chest) My heart. My faith. My belief in You.
Because You are always there for me..so, I'll ALWAYS BELIEVE IN YOU.
An always with another always..that's fair enough, right Al-`Adlu? (The Most Just)
So, dear friends, "He Will Always Be There" - by Maher Zain.
Allahu akbar 3xAllahu akbar AllahAllahu akbar 3xAllahu akbar AllahIf you ask me about loveand want to know about itMy answer would beIt's everything about AllahThe pure love to our soulsThe Creator of you and meThe heavens and whole universeThe One that made us whole and freeThe Guardian of His true believersSo when the time gets hardThere's no where to turnAs He promised He will always be thereTo bless us with His loveAnd His mercy cuzAs He promised He will always be thereHe's always watching us, guiding usAnd He knows what's deep in our heartsSo when you lose your wayTo Allah you should turnCuz as He promised He will always be thereHe brings us out from the darknessInto the lightSubhanallahCapable of everythingWe shouldn't ever feel afraidOf anything as longAs we follow His guidance all the wayThrough the short time we have in this lifeSoon it'll all be over and we'll beIn His heaven and we'll all be fineSo when the time gets hardThere's no where to turnAs He promised He will always be thereTo bless us with His loveAnd His mercy cuzAs He promised He will always be thereHe's always watching us, guiding usAnd He knows what's deep in our heartsSo when you lose your wayTo Allah you should turnCuz as He promised He will always be thereAllahu akbar 3xAllahu akbar AllahAllahu akbar 3xAllahu akbar AllahAllahu akbar 3xAllahu akbar AllahAllahu akbar 3xAllahu akbar AllahSo when the time gets hardThere's no where to turnAs He promised He will always be thereTo bless us with His loveAnd His mercy cuzAs He promised He will always be thereHe's always watching us, guiding usAnd He knows what's deep in our heartsSo when you lose your wayTo Allah you should turnCuz as He promised He will always be thereAllahu akbar 3xAllahu akbar Allah